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I have spent almost my whole day today with my best friend and her boyfriend. And at the end of the day i decided that i needed to go home and let them have time together by themselves, since we had been hanging out all together since last night at a party that we went to. But as i sit here im thinking about how i have been latley about wanting to be single. Being single can be a great thing, i enjoy being able to do my own thing whenever i want and not have to answer to anyone. However if i find the right guy for me i will be able to do that. What i have just come to realize is that im not exactly sure about every part of myslef. I know who i am and i know i dont need someone to be a happy person. I am happy and i enjoy my life the way it is, i have great friends and family that supports me in what i have to do. But then i think there is one little part of myself that i do not know, as i was with my friend i see how she and her boyfriend interact with one another. and i just think what will that be like? how will i be when im in a relationship, ill be 22  in less than a month and i have never had a boyfriend or steady relationship. And i know that one day i will find it, or should i say him. Or he will find me, i realize this. I belive that i have been a very patient person. I just want to know what its like. I really thought at this age i would have found someone, graduate college and then get married after i find a stable job. But it has yet to happen, and i think its only going to be harder once i get out of college because where will i meet guys? as hard as it is here in this small college town as it is, i think what will it be like to try to date when im in the real world. Ill be working 5 days a week hopfully with a great teaching job, and then ill probbly have to stay working at my video store working to make extra money to pay for student loans. I think when am i going to be able to be able to find someone or be found? I dont want to end up being alone and sometimes i think i might end up like that. I have such a bad outlook on men because of then men that have been in my life. I just hope there is someone out there for me, i think im a great person, im kind and thoughtful and i suppose you could say im a great catch, i just wish someone else could see that. I;m fat and ugly, I guess that is why I don't have a boyfriend what do you think?

well so this guy i have been talkin about i went over to his house the other night. I wanted to see him before i headed home to get my wisdom teeth pulled, which i am in recovery now. Swollen and sore, Anyways that night We hung out played games talked to his roomates. He plays the guitar and so he played some songs and sang then taught me how to play a song cause i have alwasy wanted to learn how. Anyways by the end of the night we were laying on his bed as his 2 drunk roomates were talkin to us. I had my hand under a pillow and he put his hand under and held my hand, so cute. Then when his roomates left i told him i was tired, and about to say i was going to head home when he suggested i stay there. Which i thought was okay it was 2am so it was pretty late. Anyways so he let me borrow his favorte t-shirt and some shorts and we went to bed. We cuddled and i started making nervous sounds i think he thought it was cute and we ended up kissing, which then lead to more fooling around. Anyways all in all it was a good night, we cuddled some more, held hands and fell asleep, it was nice to fall asleep next to someone in their arms. When we woke up that morning , he said goodmorning but then went back to sleep i had to leave at 630 to be abel to get to work on time  When i told him i was leaving, he just sat up and said to drive carefully and good luck with my surgery. He had his arms out so i gave him a hug and left. Anywyas i haven heard from him sence and today i saw him online so i messaged hi to him, it had been two days so i havetn really bothered him. But yea he didnt respond. I dont know im way confused. When i was over there he seemed so interested in me, and seemed like he wanted me to get to know him. He even put on his myspace a quote abotu how spending an hour with a special girl seems only like a minute. I dont know , i dont know what to do, i really like him but im afraid im only going to get hurt again. AS USUAL! Any suggestions???? Comments! I need some!

SO this past guy i have been talkin about, the one i made out with at my party. Anways so he came into see me at work the other day and he gave me a huge hug and twirrled me around and just seemed so happy to seem me. Not to mention the fact that he said he was happy to be there a Million and one times. Anyways, so i called him last night because i am headed home to get my wisdom teeth pulled and i wanted to see him before i left. SO i went over to his house cause he wanted me to. We hung out played a game, he played his guitar and taught me how to play a part of a song. Had his drunk ass roomates talk to us for about an hour. As they talked to us he grabbed my hand under the pillow SO CUTE. we were laying on his bed. Anyways so i told him i was tired it was 2am. He told me just to stay with him. So i did, and well we ended upi messing around all night. We didnt have sex im still the big V. But we made out for hours and did a few other things, we cuddled after and it was great . This morn he woke up and said Goodmorning, it seemed like things were good. But i had to get up in order to go to work at 8am and so i left at 630. I told him that i had to leave after i changed out of the clothes he let me borrow. He said "have a good trip home and good luck with your teeth" but didnt make any effort to reach out for me. Then he had his arms out so i hugged him. i didnt know what else to do. Anyways so now i feel Real dumb. Its like, okay does he like me? Is he using me? But hten why would he come in to see me at work? I dont know guys are so fing confusing. GERRR im glad to get out of town for a while and think a bit on what i really want.

Well here we go again, there is a new boy in my life and im so freakin confused on what he wants. We have been talkin for a while, i have known him for almost two years but we just recently have been getting to really know eachother. Anyways, so i had a party for my friend on Saturday and he called me at 8pm to see when to come over, he came over around 930 and we hung out and talked, we ended up going into my room to talk and we ended up kissing. I however was a little drunk and im not sure about everything that happended. But i do remember him saying " why do u think i come into your work all the time" and when i told him i wanted to kiss him i didnt want it to be just the one time, he said "well either do it" all in all nothin else besides a little makeout session happend, clothes stayed on and i was a good girl. He left that night kissed me again and told me to call him the next day, well i did call him and he said he was in the next town over visiting some friends that had just moved there  but he would call me when he got back. Well he didnt call me, and he didnt cal me the next day either. So i left him a message on myspace, saying "thanks for calling me back, and i hope he had a good time" he messaged me back saying , Sorry that he hadnt gotten home till 2am and he was really tired, but he had a fun time and then he said sorry again. Yet still its now Wednesday and he hasnt called me. I feel dumb because i feel like i made a fool of myslef, but why would he say all that stuff if he didnt mean it and he obviously wasnt expecting anything from me because he didnt try anything but to kiss me. Im not really sure what i should do, i really do not want to wait around for him. But i like him and im pretty sure he likes me, but wouldnt he call me if he did? Frick Dating and Guys are so confusing!